some days I think I am just inventing ways to fail that did not previously exist

like, no human being would put themselves in a position where that kind of failure was even possible

and that's not even something spectacular like evildoing; just FAILING

meaning well just makes it more embarrassing and painful for all parties involved

Do you want to talk about it?

thanks for asking xD ... but it's just a hole I dug myself into, turning stuff in late in school-- in a class I'm RETAKING for

failing to turn in all my work

which I'll have to do again....... with another class

even though I can manage more with the meds, it's just a big problem I shouldn't have expected to vanish

that is rooted in more than laziness

from now on, I won't take more than two classes a semester

and I've discovered I am 150% healthier as a human being, and more productive, when I am working a job with other humans

and not just trying to abstractly schedule schoolwork.

and living in my head.

Yeah, interacting with people does have its positive sides

I miss many things about working in libraries, but actually talking to the general public--

--might be the biggest one.

I think that while it would be very nice to get paid high enough to afford working shorter hours, and use that for creative work

--I'd still want some kind of other work that's more interactive. Getting out and seeing people.

Uh, sorry. Got sidetracked into talking about myself again.

Do you do mainly study from home, then? Not much classroom-other students interaction?