just prepare for the unexpected obstacles..heheh.. baka mabangga ka..heheh..

basta NO ko..hehehe

di bale jebave...ill make it sure..ill never regret anything ill do...

bethleva: un ang hinahangaan q sau beth.. you're full of confidence.. and you always have a positive outlook in life..

haaaayy....sana nga din im that strong...

you are www.plurk.com/bethleva..

i might break down in a while...

hmmm.. sometimes kailangan moh din magbreak down.. it only shows that you're human..

but its not worth it...

it will be.. because of the lessons that you'll learn from it..

i want it done na!!!!

yoko na!!!!

don't say it beth.. habang nabubuhay tau, patuloy taung makakaranas ng kabiguan sa buhay.. masakit man, we have to live by it..

with it i mean..

no..im done...

so suko ka na.?

uu...last year pa...

then forgive, forget, let go.. and move on..

im done with forgiving...inintindi ko na siya...

im now at forgetting stage pa...

kaya moh yan beth..

nag facebook kasi ako kanina eh...using desktop..so may nakita ako na hinde ko na sana pinansin pa...

kaya eto na naman ako...bitter..at so affected...

nakakainis...naiinis ako sa sarili ko...

gusto ko nang kumawala sa feeling na to...

masakit.. pero dapat tanggapin moh.. everything happened for a reason..

andon na ako...pero bakit ba parang nasasaktan pa rin ako...

di ka pa kasi nakaget over sakanya.. something you still feel something for him.. kaya ganoon..

thats what im asking to myself...

you'll forget him..

ano pa? i dont love him na...

i dont even miss him...

sure ka.? kung di moh na xa mahal bakit nasasaktan ka pa rin.?

ego ko?

no..i dont love him anymore...iba ako jen...kahit nasa harapan ko pa siya...pag sinaktan mo na ako naayoko na...

hmmm.. then it must be your ego..

the pain is more on being angry...

galit nararamdaman ko...

pag naaalala ko..nagagalit ako...

naiinis ako...

sa kanya..sa sarili ko...

sabi moh napatawad moh na siya.. tas galit ka pa rin sa kanya.? hanggang di moh sya napapatawad ng lubusan.. di ka makakamove on beth..

yes i have forgiven him...i know its not consistent with what i feel right now...

im into trust issues kasi jen...

pag yan giniba o sinira ni nino man...naku...

its the most unforgivable mistake beth.. kahit sakin gnun din.. but we have to let the past go and move on.. stop hating him na..

i wish i could say yes...but i dont want to be hypocrit as well..

i'll pray for you beth.. sana you'll forget him na..

i dont know jen...i knwo myself...ill forever carry this feeling for him...

stop hating him beth.. un ang dapat mong gawin.. coz, the more you hate him.. the more u drag urself into misery..

gusto mo bang maging miserable buhay moh forever.?

of course not...

but i dont think i really hate him...

i just couldnt forget what he did for me..for my family...

for his kids....

pero...yon nga..prayers lang talaga to jen...

for a while na ok na ako...

need to pray more again...

for this matter...

when that feeling strikes you again beth, pray.. ask for God's guidance.. un lang makakagamot sau..

and i wont allow him or his thoughts to ruin me...my life..

yeah you are right...