....I really don't know, to be honest! San Francisco area is a good candidate because it's nice, it's near my sister and my best friend from

high school, and it has a pleasing climate. But I don't feel ready to settle down in one place for a long time, really. There's too much

of the country, even the world, that I haven't seen yet. How could I say what I want when I don't know what's out there?

Dream job?

...Um. Comic writerartist person. But I still can't draw for shit, despite my best efforts. And I have serious spatial problems so that may

not be something that I can change, because I just can't visualize things in 3D. :\ So I'm trying but it's a way way uphill battle.

At least you wouldn't bend continuity over and fuck it the way people in Marvel and DC do..... That alone sets you a cut above.

I can't visualize either, Jenx! Such a dilemma. I am starting to think maybe my depth perception has something to do with it.

Could be! Though that actually is very encouraging, because you're so good at so many artsy things. If you can get that far, there is hope!

And my depth perception is fine, but the only time I got a psych eval there's this hilarious graph

where I score really high on everything and then spatial ability was WAY IN THE RED OH MY GOD WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT

And my cognitive psych class demo'd a classic experiment on mental rotation of objects and had to throw out my data as an outlier

I have one eye that is nearsighted and one that is farsighted and I can't judge distance for crap

But I also can't imagine whole pictures in my head at once. It's kind of like my mind is dark, and I can shine a light on a screen where

I picture something, but the light can only illuminate one little bit at a time. I can't see the whole thing.

That's why so much of my work focuses on patterns and building things.

That's really interesting. Makes sense though! But doesn't that make it hard to make patterns? That's a big picture visualization thing.

Nooooo, not at all! Because a pattern divvies things up into small parts, just like what I see in my mind.

So I start from one point and then build up, and then I can see how everything should fit.

To that extent art is really a technical process for me. No matter what I'm doing, I'm "building" it.

witchcrafter both my eyes are nearsighted but my left eye is so much worse than my right that every optomitrist ever is like, "are you ok?"

the first time they see me, and my eyes have a focal distance difference of over a foot. Fortunately, glasses correct it!

in more relevant news, San Francisco is awesome and I'm probably staying here and Jenx would love it when he eventually decides to stay in

one place for any length of time!

...slinks off to do her work again