I feel really disconnected from.... everything, lately.

I don't really know what to do about it. It's like I forgot how to talk to people. And I don't think I'm fitting in at Rakuen.

Awww

And every time I want try and get closer to people again IRL or online, I either can't figure out how to talk to them or I don't have time

Thanks. It's a very stupid sort of problem.

/hugs ;;

I know what you mean, though. I feel like that sometimes.

Yeah? What do you do to get out of it?

And thanks guys. I know it's lame but it kind of makes me feel better to know that I at least haven't fallen so far out of touch that no one

even listening? I'm lucky to have you all.

When it happens to me, I do something that's only for me, like read a book or listen to songs that are important to me.

Go and talk to the people I feel like I should be talking to any way, mostly.

Even if it's just a silly, meaningless conversation, or a how are you, it helps.

/hugs and pours tea on

....aaah this is embarrassing what am I even saying

BUT THANKS GUYS I don't know, I think I've spent too much time doing things on my own and that's part of the problem?

Anyway as kind of a stupid illustration of my point, I have to go get ready for work now. :\ So. Seeya.

/leans head on your shoulder, hugs...! Take Care, yes? Crossing my fingers for you

hugs we're heeere for you out in CA!

Srsly though dude, if you want to connect more (even on inane things) I check this website pretty much for you, so gauranteed comments!

*by "for you" I mean "because I want to keep in touch with you."

I mean. Your peeps are awesome and all, and that's fun (and sometimes really profound/intriguing) but.

You're my bro.

I get to feeling that way really easily if I spend too long (read: more than a day) without any social interaction.

And that leads to general depression and lack of energy, which makes me feel worse because I'm being so unproductive and letting

the house get messy and not getting the baby to sleep on schedule etc etc.

I generally make myself invite someone over- more than one someone if I can- and get the house/myself prettied up for them.

And having them over refuels me enough to get through a few days.

Probably wouldn't be so bad if Zack and I weren't on opposite work schedules and not seeing one another at all for several days every week.

I hope you start feeling a little more connected soon! If you ever need to just hear a voice, call me.

... man, I'm sorry. I don't know, but uh. Is there anything I can do? Since I'm... living with you and shit, idek.

Here is a present

snugs and harrasses