... then my internet went away.

fuck, I need to do something.

my grandmother is doing laudnry toniht, maybe I will do reordings then. because my brain will not stop beating me up when I try to write.

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... and not eat. I need to not stuff my face. i don't needfood, I don't dserve snacking, I shouldn't get anything.

Of course. <3

I'm not actually hungry.

I ate enough to be fine, I just. want to eat, want to have something to do. want to keep my mouth occupied.

but we dont have food and we dont have money and everything we have should be saved. I'm just being stupid.

it's fine. no rpivacy, anyway.

thanks. <3

I know. <3

still canno so much s figure out what to try and focus onw riting. I'm just going to turnthemusic up really loud and pretend I didn't try.

and firefox needed to restart, so i cant even go bck to burying myself in fic. because i cannot open 120 tabs without crashing again.

............... fuck firefox. fuck the internet. fuck my computer. fuck distractions and fuck motiviation and fuck everything.