I am giving myself till 2:15, 2:30 to fuck around and relax and stop feeling ill. then dammit, I am working.

internet. please work. I am fucking HERE because I need you to work.

... fuck my life, if I have to move to the next computer. it is not in the corner and ahnsornfwjtfw

okay. restarting firefox helped, a lot.

... god, I'm fucking pathetic.

I tried, I tried, I tired, I just froze.

I don't know what to write or what to write about or what instrument to use for fuck's skae.

I'm more comfortable with voice, I just... feel like I'm doing it awkward and wrong when I try to use either one.

I'm not even trying for anything else, just one of those two, I just-- yeah.

Fail. I fail, that's what I do. I fail. It is a pattern by now.

... and im supposed to email the guidance counselor before ileave fuck everything.

Yeah, I'm gonna. I'm not leaving till at least 4, thouh, so it's not like I need to do it this second, but.

Nnnnng, hate my school's website and how hard it makes figuring things out.

it is not givign me emails to contact anyone, so my best bets seem to be either showing up or calling to set up an appointment.

alright. I need to see how sane I am when I leave.

office is open till 7. If I am sane enough to call by then I will do that.

If not I will go tomorrow after my test.;

i will get someone to hit me over the head, force me, whatever. I will, for once, not hermit from my own brainscape and use it to my benefit

now I need to -- go back to my muisic things.

.... fuck it all, I am taking a break.

i will get back to it by 3:45. I just. I need a break.

I am on the verge of freaking out and my meds got left in my other bag so I am dealing with it without those and I just. need to stop.

or I am going to cry in the comp lab.

And I have done that before and it never is fun.

... thank you diana for that greeting. I am not sure whether I want to set Cheshire Kitten on repeat or should take it off right now.