Want my brain back and to not sleep.

fuck fuck FUCK my brain is turning on me now that I cannot put it into use.

think I am going to be sick and I cannot face the bedroom.

cannot dealw ith dark, cannot deal with lying still, really really canot take off my glasses oh god

I know just. brian. brain has been pulling fuckery on me all day and i didnt need this.

keep hearing sirens and nails on chalkboards and screeching and pain and theres notihng there

and there are certain visuals which just make me ill even on good days and things that reoccur when y brain tries to freka me out

i dont know. dont know where my phone is.

nt use the house hone this late.

mabe when ig o? i need to find it anyway for the alarm and idont know. maybe itll help

okay

okay, I think im going because i cant handle the dirty looks. i ust. i cant. im managing not to show too much and i cant do that if she

keeps doing this.

and i have to be up in about five and half ahours and i should go. i should. going to go.