It was actually some advice my Mum gave me that's really helped...
First of all I wasn't sure if I should keep planning or just start writing. And she was like 'well, you wouldn't be here asking me what to
do if you didn't already feel like it was time to start writing - you'd just be planning like you have been for months'
and I was like, damn, Mum logic, always makes sense D:
and then, just before going to 'bed' - i.e. to sit on my computer and write more, I said how difficult it is to write, and she was like
'don't stress about it - just act like you're the reader, you're just finding out what happens next. When I was writing my book it was so
exciting, cause I was just getting surprised along with the reader, I'd finish a chapter and go 'oh! what happens next?' so just treat it
like that' - and you know, it's actually really helped :/
i still worry about ugh, this dialogue is awful, and have moments of 'oh shit, this needs to happen' or 'that doesn't make sense'
but it's so exciting letting my BBs tell me what happens :3
and because i know vaguely what's coming up, i look forward to it, like 'ohhh, they're gonna meet Wavesong soon~'
ALSO, when i let you read it, which will be soon but not yet, you have to PROMISE to just read it as if you know nothing about it or them
and like you don't know that Saim is coming, or any of that
that's how i'm trying to write it, but it's hard being impartial

and i'm too scared to show anyone else actually impartial yet
hmmmm, which would you prefer - waiting another few days, and then getting a chapter every few days/week or so, or getting a few paragraphs
like every day or two days
Whatever you feel like doing
hmmmmmmmm, not sure yet
i need more time to decide, especially since it's only a first draft

it kind of sucks