It's happening again

I don't know why but this one person

talking about her boyfriend annoys the shit out of me

she seems so happy..

and i'm happy for her

but..why is it that i can't even FUCKING TALK to my boyfriend?

she actually sees her boyfriend

face to face

they've FUCKED for gods sake and she told me all about that too

yet i can't get mine to talk to me for 10 minutes

seriously why do i put up with this when i know ill just end up hurt?

why do i do a LOT of things to know i'll just end up hurt?

it's like im some sort of sadomasochist

but against myself

its like i set myself up for heart break

just...fuck everything right now

and the worst part

im too nice to tell her to shut the fuck up

I luv u bb

thanks <3

i lav u 2

It's all going to be okay.

I don't even get why it bothers me

i should be happy for her

that she has someone that cares

but no, it just makes me jealous

I understand that feel. It makes me feel bad that I get jealous.

;sigh, flop over

this heat isn't helping either

-Oh, extended honeymoon phase?-

-Cool off, Flanhuman. Your species is greatly affected by temperature fluctuations.-

if only my air conditioning worked better