and when it comes down to it, I'd rather take my inner pain to the One who can heal my heart rather than masking it with substances. Jesus, through His Spirit, truly satisfies.
I so understand. I have addictive pain meds and sleeping meds to help me with my health problems and take them both so rarely because I prefer letting God control these instead.
Oh no... I hope it's not from the meds. I take my meds when absolutely necessary. When I messed up my wrist, I took them more often, but yeah... I hated the inability to think well.