I haven't legit talked to my ex in so long.

And lately with this loneliness I've been feeling, I just really want to go over to his house and hug him for a while.

I don't want him back, but just whit what's been happening I really miss him as a friend and I only ever broke down in front of him.

I just... I want a hug so bad. I forget the last time I had a tender touch. Not even sexually but just a platonic gentle touch. I miss it. No one touches me anymore.

It's like everyone thinks I have the plague now or something. It's disheartening and makes me really sad and only intensifies the feeling of alone.

Plus I know how mom wouldn't mind. She adores me still and if I showed up out of no where upset, she'd be concerned more than anything else.

*his

I just want to break down in front of someone I know wouldn't mind and have them hold me. I've held myself together for so long now, it's getting so much harder.