This feels really awkward, and I wish I wasn't going to type this. But, I will type this in a few minutes.

So I'm just going to put up a placeholder here for the time being while I finish a few quick assignments. Then, there's a thing to be addressed.

If you're looking at this, you can probably guess what this will be about. And I promise I will give an explanation. I'm genuinely sorry you felt that this had to be brought up, and I hope this reaches you.

But please give me just a few minutes to handle some classwork.

Also, yes. I realize the irony of having to ask you to wait for an explanation here.

Okay.

That took less time to go through than I thought it would.

Right, let's do this thing.

First and foremost, I fully understand and believe you have legitimate complaints and grievances. For this, I can only offer an apology for all counts that you felt it necessary to bring up.

Yes. I've fluked, I'm sure I have. I am extremely forgetful and prone to exactly this sort of thing in both professional and normal environments. I have to be very careful about organizing myself.

I have a lot of difficulty keeping up with people I don't talk with frequently, and I admit that I have been very lax in doing just that. My awkward schedule of classes, family concerns, and sleeping makes it-

difficult to keep up with people and catch them to talk, which I why I have this, and several messaging programs for people to reach me by that I leave on nearly all the time.

As for the matters of CR, I feel a great deal of shame that I could be putting forth any such impression and wish to whole-heartedly apologize for my inadequacies. I cannot undo what damage to your impression

of me has been done, and all I can do is respectfully ask you and anyone else with these grievances to please, if you are able, step forward so that I may do everything I am able to improve the situations

between myself, you, your character(s), and any other people affected by our mutual CR.

I do not wish to be seen as any sort of fluke, squatter, or selfish player only seeking to fill AC requirements. I want to have active CR with a wide circle of characters, and now I find myself worrying very

much that this may be impossible due to my own failings at maintaining the relationships I had.

It hurts me to think that I am making a bad name for myself, and that you or anyone else in this same situation felt that it was this bad. That you believed in necessary to speak anonymously is especially

troubling, as it suggests you are either concerned that a conflict may occur or that I would be unwilling to otherwise accept your critique at face value.

And so I find myself here, seated and considering how best to reach out to a person who, to their credit was blunt and honest enough to say what mattered and indeed did give me the very stern critique that is

warranted by my failings.

While this may be something of a faux pas, I have a humble request for you, if you do see this.

Please contact me. If you do stand up, I promise to do everything I am able in order to repair what I will be allowed of this situation. There are some reasons why I have been failing within the past few weeks

that I would also like to discuss that may shed light on matters, but if this is as much an issue as I fear, this may be a longstanding problem that reaches well beyond my current reasoning.

It would be disingenuous of me to demand or assert that you must contact me, if you require ways to contact me outside plurk or dreamwidth I will provide them here and now.

I can be reached on Skype as cyrusnicholaigreywolf or AIM at cyrusgreywolfiii as well my skype SN is also my contact for Windows Live.

If you, or anyone else that has or would like to start CR with me on here would please contact me I would be deeply grateful.

This is a matter that needs to be sorted out and handled in as much an amicable way as is possible. As such, I can only thank you in advance for your time reading this, and again offer my apologies.

:|a have you thought about poking the thread in question? Just in case the anon doesn't watch your plurk.

idk who it is, but there's always a chance they might miss this as a result

The anon mentioned my plurk, so I thought they might see this here. But, that is also a good idea I hadn't considered. Very likely because derp.