dont you love body dysphoria

im a sick freak

hisses and spits

i just came out to my band over facebook like a cowardly piece of shit and i want to die

i totally psyche myself out on days i know i have to leave the house and then get frustrated because i am unable to deal with how i look even though it's definitely fixable

and its pathetic

dysphoria sucks and im sorry you're having a shit day

dont look at me casey im an ugly puddle of goo

i dont have any good emotes to cheer you up but if we were hanging out in real life id give you a really tender shoulder pat

its ok maybe ill get over it enough soon

my inner textvoice has gone from violently acidic to a really dumb apathetic one so i think im calming down

i just freaked myself out because whoa man, let's hang out with people you've known since high school and don't know you're not a girl anymore.

or that you probably never were but just didn't know the right word for it

or that it existed

and that every time they refer to you as she or make an offhand joke about it it's like this giant bowling ball slamming you in the stomach

i went outside to take the dogs out and i literally felt like the whole world was watching me haHAHahhHA this fucking ugly freak walking down the sidelkwkael

klwakj;

screams out bile

I feel you really hard, bro

and if this stuff comes and goes for you, I hope it comes to pass soon

I'm really sorry.

I've only just got to the point where I'm trying to tell people, so I'm in a kind of stealth mode still so my situation doesn't compare. but I do understand

char i love you

<3

things are gonna get better