what's going on?

What happened?

i hav to leave here around july and lots of thing are driving me crazy recently. not so serious but annoyed. like my game-addicted bro or my drama dad or mosquitoes! they just keep coming! damn!

after u leave, u'll miss them.

i know that kind of feel, sometimes my mom is annoying too

not that kind of annoying, i'm firmly sure. there's love behind ur mom's annoyance,i guess. but my dad..he's like i'm an ungrateful kid that i should do everything for him without$ second thought.

if i say no, he'll start talking about how he did helping and taking care of me when i was a child...i know i should be good to my parents but i don't like this kind of feeling, like i owe him something

and i'm gonna to pay it back with all my life? i just...i'm not ungrateful. but my dad is making me difficult to be good to him. and this is not the thing that a daughter will gonna miss about her dad.

it's always annoying, but do believe me, you will miss those negative feeling once you never have them for a long time.

You must understand that its difficult for old generation to change their stubborn value and belief, so, the you have no choice to play the role as the one to sacrifice something

like i have no choice but be born in this family? no. here's my thought: they did raising me, that i'm grateful, but they hav no right to decide what i should be or do. gosh, i'm almost 24.

the only thing i need from them now is their respect and trust. not treat me like a pet and give me order every time they talk to me.

sigh...nevermind. it's always complicated. but there's one thing i sure about, that love will decline for one's behavior. and in my case now, it's declining in a horrible rate.

feel bad for you ......but, do always remember that you still have our big big love