[RL] there are two things which have somehow a smoothing effect for me, rain at night (if I don't have to get out of home obv) and the horns that ships play on coast.
The ships because well, I am an exchange student, and my dad is a boat commandant. So when I hear the boats doing noise here I feel very good because I feel like I am back in my childhood
and well, feel protected and safe somehow. Like things will be fine and not this uncertain future which I am not sure if I won't end up in a gutter somewhere penniless.