DH told me he wants a divorce. I'm so fucking crushed

Oh honey!! This doesn't mean it's the end. Many good thoughts coming your way!

I hope that isn't the case. But coming from first hand experience, I worked 7 more yrs on a marriage after he asked for divorce, counseling, etc and wound up divorced anyway. I

Sometimes wish I'd just accepted it then. But things never work out the way we planned. And hopefully they end up the best way possible. Know you've got emotional support from your knitting friends!