torture conscience every minute...

I'm scared, mahn.

thats good... gives you warning...

How is it good.

think of it this way... you learn to be scared, you succumb to it, you know its ugliness... when all else is over, if little bit of humanity remains, you live, stand up fight back...

But.... hmm. Where do you put friends who are waiting to label themselves to be bf/gf 'til next year.

Under friends? Or under lovers? Unlabelled couple? What. The. Fuck. This is crazy shit.

are you me? hahahahha i'm in almost the same state... i talked to him about it... clarified things... made him understand, even though the wall is fickle... to my case my mind isn't ready for something...

but i told him next year, he will have his turn... it would be more real than now...

i decide when and why... i'm sorry i didn't help LOLOL

Gahd. HAHAHAHAHAHA. E pareho pala tayo magulo e.

shrug i know... i live with it~ but i'm not afraid to try... because i know what i want... shit have tons of people to explain to once it happens... although what do YOU want?

I want to be in a serious and VERY committed relationship. We agreed we were gonna have that. That's why we're taking things slow. But we've already exchanged iloveyous and shit after 3 months.

But i can't take it. I can't take his habits. I can't take it 'cause i feel like i don't have the right to tell him "DON'T DO THIS AND THAT"

LOL well theres nothing bad about that if its true... i mean you know its true... tilt head right?

Yes. And it hurts. It now leads me to the conclusion, what if we just remain friends? Cause you know, maybe we'll better together that way.

are you? because if i remember people who enter in a relationship never ended their friendship from each other to begin with...

i'm thinking the same sometimes, because i doubt and waver on many occasions... hard being born fickle... but in my case... i gave my word, i placed my feet on the ground I made...

Im scared he might fall inlove w/ his friend. They're always together. Plus, the girl likes him. That's why im thinking, what if he & i bcame jst friends. Would he be open & honest more? Or would he go for her?

have you tried being sly?

Like how?

try being honest to him, talk about this... worry of yours to him...

he is the only one who can make your mind at ease especially... besides yourself ofcourse...

i'm not a good comfort...

He hung up. I wasn't in a good mood. Dead ang phone nya all night long, sya pa galit...

^sorry to hear that... anyway cheer up, right now magpakasaya ka muna, spend someone quality alone time to relax and if inbetween think of only positive...

Better, I guess.

pansikoser Yep. Im gonna do just that exactly. Thank you dear

marnelee - Why'd you say that?

ABBiENORMALiTY: Because it;s better that way. HAHAHA. No break ups. No jealous2 effect.