who studies friday nights

now i don't have access to internet in my bedroom i dont have a safe place anymore

i'm starting to resent the fact that i'm trying to get out there

what was i thinking trying to befriend people and joining a magazine and promising to join clubs

this is such a bad idea noooooooooooooooooooooooooo

i want to disappear again

it's this stupid goal

why did i decide to pursue life goals

i am going to live a nobody and die a nobody

nobody will ever remember anything i do and trying to make my mark would only burn me

as if i'm not a pillar of hate and bitterness already

i wish i could be content

with what i could do

i wish i could be content with just making friends and getting married and having babies

WHATEVER i am going to go home and cry and rewatch the swimming anime

on plurk

We love you and believe in you, my dear. You are a strpng, intelligent person

thanks sweetie

i actually needed that because i haven't been in a warm, safe environment in a while

i mean i have friends but we're not that close? and all my boardmates hate me atm so

everyone i'm living with hate me so i stay out really late so i dont have to interact with them pshh

ok gonna go home for real

you are bright and driven, it isnt your fault if others do not have as much desire to succeed as you do

Remember that hard work pays off

Think of all the talent you have that they do not! You're beautiful, brilliant with languages, you can express yourself through writing

wonderfully and creatively, you are a talented artist

Many people wish they had even one of those skills, let alone all of them!

/hugs tightly

failaga: Jack aaaaaaaaaaaaa

<33333333

/cues sound of silence instrumental

you are loved, and we're all here for you if you need us