god

i am so fucking done

with trying to respect people

i think the only reason i get upset when people hate and disrespect me is because i usually try to respect them

there is considerable effort being spent trying to act like someone deserves the respect i give them, that they are a unique person with feelings that get hurt

when they act like i'm not a person with feelings that get hurt

hey news flash, douchebag, you are not as unique or as smart or as beautiful as you think you are

you are actually a giant, self-centered idiot with no thoughts of your own

you are the ugly, humiliating product of mindless television propaganda and your parents' own failed dreams

your continued existence is nothing but a waste of oxygen, money, space and resources, and this stupid shitty country would be better off if you died because it's crowded here already

when you die, nobody will remember you because you are nothing but an insignificant insect

i am done

i am f u c k i n g done trying to live with people

somebody slit my fucking throat so i don't have to deal with these assholes anymore

i am done with pain and heartache, why does the world keep wanting to hurt me when all i want is to be left alone

i'm going back to the boarding house and do my paper and read those novels for an exam, and i am going to act like my chest doesn't hurt and i am not dizzy with anger and hatred

god i'm honestly surprised i've gone 19 years without murdering somebody tbh