(...I feel like over the past year or two I've been getting upset/stressed out/whatever waaaaaay more easily than the rest of my life leading up to it)

so like

This laptop I use was bought for me by my grandparents as a highschool graduation gift. So I was like 17 or 18 at the time. Now I'm 22.

So naturally my parents are like OH HEY WE HAVE SOME EXTRA MONEY WHY DON'T WE GET YOU A NEW COMPUTER FOR CHRISTMAS

but recently I just feel really, really, really bad if people spend money on me (because useless freeloading parasite wah wah wah blah blah blah)

Like, my mom figured out that I'd totally want a 3ds to play the new Pokemon on and made me own up to it and I was practically tearing up when I said so over email??????

And now I am weirdly upset after dad is all COMPUTER FOR CHRISTMAS etc

It's nice of them to want to buy me things?? But I just feel really awful because it's expensive and I don't NEED it and yeah

...the same thing happens to me, actually.

Nngh. My current computer still works just fine (somehow) but dad apparently won't listen to that excuse

The compromise I've worked out with her is basically 'here is X thing I'd like to have' where X is more than I can spend on myself but still only half of what she'd spend if I left it to her.

:|a

The sweet spot between these two sums is about...45 bucks, I guess?

Mm, maybe I can get them to go for a cheap one, at the very least...