I like work at cornerston

I like the people, I like the work, I like the money

But for the past four weeks, I've worked at both of my jobs 7 days, ranging from 8 hours to 14 hours and I'm exhausted

I slept through my shift on friday and missed 40 minutes of today because I am just so tired and ready to be done with things

and then I just can't get food down right, so I eat a meal a day, and usually it's something unhealthy

/hunts down and drags a sleep back for

I keep trying to slim down so on the off chance I do go to Washington, I don't meet Samm and she realized she's dating a blimp or something

ruuuuuude

/chases those thoughts away

and then I just spend all my time when I'm not working or sleeping being painfully hard on myself about this that and the other and just mmmgh

maybe you'll show up and go D: D: THAT IS A STICK NOT A PERSON

A STICK WITH A MOP ON ONE END

A cutie is what I'll think

nope. a stick.

If I do get up there and see you, I might either hug you to death or just pick you up and leave with you

goooood -w-

but on that note, I still have school to pay for, and I need to get my wisdom teeth removed and I need to get blood tests and CPAP comes on Monday or Tuesday I don't even remember

I want to have full time permanent Cornerstone so I can drop Michaels and I need to get gifts sent out to people for Christmas

And I need to finish other gifts and do more shopping

but I don't have time

I don't even have weekends

Every day it' just work work work and I'm exhausted and self-conscious and medically worn out as well with all the bills and studies and tests

I don't even have time to clean my room or motivation

I'm sorry I'm whining

shhh its okay

you can whine

ugh that sucks, sounds like you need a break

/snuggles all and holds all close to self

I am thankful for everything I have. This job, these people, Samm who is such a perf babe for putting up with all this

But I can't wait for the holidays to be over

holidays are butts when you get no you-time

And I want my perm job at Cornerstone, and my possible raise, and trip to Washington, and just...

that being said, I was late to work today and when I showed up, Tim did a happy dance

anyways. I have to help with house things tomorrow before Michaels work, so I'll try to be on tomorrow... sometime? /nuzzles all and tugs Samm to blanketnest

i have a trip to grandma's tomorrow so i will be mostly phone, I think

/snuggles into nest with

/hug