I think I hate my online life nearly as much as my real life. I don't know how to get rid of this overbearing depression that never. ever. leaves me. I haven't been able to enjoy anything in almost a year.
I'm trying to get better, but nothing makes me feel anything... nothing really makes me smile, nothing matters to me much. I'm really sick and I can't get insurance. I want to exercise but I feel nauseous/dizzy
at times like this people say "at least I have my health", but I don't. I don't have freedom either.
I'm just my parent's fucked up pet they don't even love but take responsibility to keep alive because they broke me. just the bare minimums, so they don't look bad. I have nothing.
