Things I don't want to do tonight: Go out and eat at a bbq place since it's the 4th and it will be busy and my anxiety will render me incapable to enjoying anything and I'll just sit there wanting to cry.
Things I really actually have to do: See above.
I cordially invite you to flee across the border and spend the evening doofing around in my living room.
I wish I could.
I get told OH YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO but if I don't I'll be labeled a bitch and a hermit.
I'm sorry my anxiety makes it where I get jittery and high strung in really busy places with lots of people. I don't actually like feeling like that.
Ugh. |: Yeah, that always helps people feel like they have a choice, doesn't it?
I used to get the same shit from various relatives of mine. It's fucking nonsense.
And I know we'll be gone ~forever~ because they want to go watch fireworks and lbr, fireworks are not that amazing, sry2say.
They were more awesome when they were instruments of war. 
I also legit have no interest in said fireworks, considering it's been done by a backwoods hick sportsmens' club.
I just want to stay here and do my fucking tags and knit and watch DMC.
warblegarble bitch whine moan complain.
I might as well just suck it up.