1. It's not like it's something I've had to deal with yet here on Dreamwidth, but at least on tumblr rp, I really felt like I was being disincluded, even by my friends, and because it was tumblr, was worried-

-that it was basically because I'm made of privilege? Like, my least privileged characteristics are being lower middle class and an atheist, which should give you a clue that overall I'm set for a life of soc-

iety handing me things. But like, I know somebody on tumblr who pretended to be trans to fit in, and while I'd never do that, I can understand the motivation.

There was straight up a time period where it felt like all my female rp friends were 'playing house' in a relatively domestic timeline after leaving the timeline I was now alone in, a space pirates Homestuck AU

So it was the girls playing house while the boy had to play spaceman alone in a corner, and that sucked.

2. I've recently felt more and more like I can't play my main muse (again, on tumblr, not here) well, and that's really, really unfortunate? Like a person she talked to a lot until recently called her (ic, mi-

nd, but still) uninspiring and bland, and when I was already insecure about that it hurt like hell, especially as she was one of the few people who seemed until that point at least somewhat interested in playi-

ng with me than hadn't already been doing so.

3. I enjoy playing smut, and I enjoy characters that are sexual. Not all of mine are, but the aforementioned blog was once described as 'a lot like the others of her kind (it's homestuck so, y'know, alternat-

es) but extremely sexual' and I was just ????

It makes me worry that people might put too much stock in the fact that I enjoy that sort of rp. Idk.

And especially when part of the reason I enjoy it is people are way less judgey in that portion of the rp community, it's really kind of self-fulfilling.