tbh I don't mind really if I stay at home on weekends my whole life, if only I'm not so tied up with church duties, but ofc that's not the point

what just struck me the most is when said something that it reflects my personality, and now I've been thinking

it's not that my life's a mess, I mean I'm doing fine in school at least, ugh how do I with wordsss

but recently, I've been feeling that there's something wrong with me internally. I've been /very much/ aloof with everything/everyone. I don't want to deal with people, especially strangers, as much as possible

I think I have trust issues? or idk, I always have my guard up that I don't show my emotions to others or sth >.>

Karu ;w;