Cause I've got a headache at the left side base of my head right now and I've never had one there and I'm just stupidly scared of brain aneurisms and dying cause I miss dad but I'm not ready to go

I'm sorry I'm being dumb

But death is scary and life is confusing and the future is so hard to picture right now

Also it keeps feeling like I have to yawn but I cannot which is worse than feeling like you have to sneeze but you don't