all because justin and I slept together

you would think that it would be a good thing, it's something I've wanted to have more of, and I've wanted it more b/c it's a big part of a healthy relationship

but it hurt and I didn't feel anything and it was short

Justin apologized for it lasting so short, and all I could say was "it's ok, it's not like I'd have had an orgasm anyway"

I feel hopeless

the gynecologist couldn't tell me what is wrong with me, said that everything looked fine

she was my last hope