Tonight she was lethargic for the first time. She threw up her food two nights in a row, so I'm pretty sure that's the cause of this. Unfortunately I can't afford pedialyte.

Otherwise I'd do that for her. This is for obvious reasons...small lungs, bathtub, humidity + Respiratory Infection = sicker Beardie.

I have to drive an hour to see the vet about a new prescription. This past two weeks has been over $400 worth of vet bills. She's worth it, but everything else will have to take a back burner.

The everything else is the bills like: phone, car insurance, car note, paying off the debt to the power company...

So, I'm getting calls from the hospital over an over due balance.

It's pretty messed up right now. Plus my little girl is still ill. If there was ever a reason to curl in a corner and have an anxiety attack, this would be it.

I've been in tears too many days in a row this week due to it all piling up. And mostly because if Braveheart died right now, I'd not handle it well.

I mean, I have her RI under control and her under control for the most part. BUT I can't take much more of anything right now. I got an 88 dollar paycheck this week. It's covering vet bills.

But there's no room for anything else. It's scary, to say the least.

Now I have a sinus infection, worried about not getting benedryl very soon due to no funds, her food (which is the first thing on the list, believe me), and putting gas in the car to go to work.

I know I whine here a plenty, but I don't care right now. This is the only place I feel safe enough to unload.

The one good thing these past few days is that I got involved in NaNoWriMo. I can be near my beardie girl and write a story just to say I did it.

I WILL be making her angel wings for this holiday season.

I will be making her dragon wings for a con in December.

And I will keep her going as long as I can

You know I'm here for you if you need to unload <3

<3 Thank you so much!