And just. I don't like life.

I need to monitor my blood pressure to make sure I remain normal and if I'm not that I get help ASAP but the thought of taking my blood pressure is triggering

Which makes my pulse go on the high almost unhealthy side of normal resting pulse which freaks out mom which makes me feel more anxious which is he opposite of what I need to be feeling

It's probably the Xanax, that stuff can make you super sleepy. Have you tried any of the stuff I sent you yet?

I tried the thinking no thing and it didn't work for me. I think I'm going to try coloring next.

hopefully that will help with calming at least, you just have to find methods that work for you and it'll make this whole thing so much easier

/nods. And Monday the doctor's assistant is going to call me with a name of a good therapist from the girls to women group so I can start therapy and maybe get mom to do the same/help for all the

Other junk we have to learn to do and assistance we can apply for

that's awesome!

The coloring sorta

Works. I don't think it'll work in full blown panic but it does give me a thing to do provided banzai isn't being an ass.

that's good! maybe when you are starting to feel anxious it's a thing you could do

once you start noticing yourself beginning the bad feels

Yeah. The only problem will be when it happens at work

And right now cause period starting which just plain sucks.

:c that's rough…

oh hey a thing showed up on my dash Aqua's Lair, braveheartswhisper:
l-adore:
here are links to.....

Cool. I'll check those out later