I had such a rough night. I'm just really struggling with my brain catching up with my body lately. In my head, I'm normal, I can do all the things I want to...the rest of me has other plans though.
My brother and sister were over yesterday and they were all talking about their christmas eve plans with their significant others, and because of my situation, I'm stuck at home.
I just feel so stuck again. A few months ago my life was finally moving forward after yearsss of stuck.
I'm tired of the stuck.
Sorry guys, I'm just super bummed out. 
You're allowed to be bummed out. It's a load of crap, let's not pretend it isn't. What things can you do?
I've got another British Christmas film for you to watch with Henry (and with Mark, if he's being nice)
miirandaroo: I'll be okay, just one of those thinky kinda nights/mornings 
ArianaSz: Oh really??
Check out Nativity (not the sequels) and Flint Street Nativity. The last one came out about 15 years ago and it's still utter genius
It's adults (famous UK actors and comedians), playing kids, who are doing a nativity. It's brilliant
I understand the stuck, but soon the chemo will pass and you'll be unstuck again. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you always 
On the brain thing - It's okay. I did that too. I swear your thought kind of take a vacation when you do chemo. Take it easy, and understand it doesn't last forever.
I've spent the last three months pretty much housebound because of chemo, so I totally understand that too. If you need anyone to talk to, I'm here. 
I am always here for you. Things will get better.
Lyla
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You're amazing, no matter what.