Okay, more like a lot of a bit.

These past few months have just been such an emotional roller coaster.

I honestly wouldn't ever wish this on my worst enemy.

You got through this once, Darlin', so you know you can do it again, right?

I'm just tired of the "OH YEAH I'M DOING GREAT....oh wait, maybe I'm not"

life's full of ups and downs... the trick to surviving is to enjoy the ups while they last and telling yourself the downs will be over soon enough

I hope so, I really do.

It's not for long, darling. The chemo will finish and then your adventures can start. Can you talk to your oncologist about pain medication?

I have a bunch of pain meds in the cabinet if it gets bad, it's not terrible pain though, it's just pain that means it's still there and reminding me of it constantly

my thoughts are always with you

I've just been having a hard time being as positive about is as I usually am.

I talked to my mom today about buying a car, but I told her that I was worried that if I died, that I'd leave them with the loan, and I don't want to do that.

She was not thrilled with me.

it severe pain, or does it come and go?

big hugs.

not severe, i meant sustained, stupid typing

Just a bit of a constant ache, it really isn't bad but it's where the really awful pain was a couple months ago.

just remember that we're still here for you if you need a pick-me-up

I'm going through this too i talked to my oncologist and she's changed my prescriptions and it seems to help. However I now have a cold and they are concerned with my wbc never ending issues

You know pain can be a tricky thing though. Once those pathways have been opened in a certain place, they can sometimes be more easily triggered.

Like pain "memory" or something. It may not have anything to do with your progress with the treatment. Some people feel very real pain with no clear physiological cause.

I hope you can get some tweaks to your meds or something to make it go away