It's probably a good thing that I've never played with a Lelouch because I would just be
on the floor full of feelings the entire time
I wouldn't be able to process it
THE WORST BUT ALSO GREAT
she has so many feelings about him
so as we all heard in part one of these plurks, her mom was killed, nunnally was rendered wheel-chair bound and blind
and these two kids were shipped off to live in a state that was about to go to war with Britannia
and like, LELOUCH WAS THE BOSSEST BIG BROTHER EVER
taking care of his sister
he loves her so much, and she loves him so much in return
he was smart, resourceful, caring, always so sweet and protective of her
probably because he was her support structure in such a traumatic and critical turning point in her life
he was literally her whole world
so then when she was told that she would have the opportunity to become governess and come out of hiding back into a life of politics and bullshit
she mostly did it because she wanted to protect him and be someone that he would be proud of
(sits in this plurk

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BUT THEN SHE FOUND OUT HE WAS A TERRORIST
THAT WAS WAGING WAR AGAINST THE EMPIRE
and when they meet after she discovers this she straight out asks him if he's doing this for her
just so sad and mad, because she never asked for this
in her heart nunnally is a lot more selfish than she tries to be
because she would have been happy just being with him
and ultimately he chose building a new world for her rather than being with her
so at the canon point I Have her at, it's after she was "betrayed" by him
she opened her eyes for the first time so that they could talk face to face
and after he realized that she wanted to enact a plan that would end up with blood on her hands, but lead to a peaceful world
he knew he could use his power on her
because he wouldn't let her carry that burden, he wanted to be the one to take the fall
so while she was all ~mind controlled~ he told her he loved her
and then once the mind control wore off she was like, FUCK YOU I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU DID THAT YOU BETRAYED MY TRUST
and tried to chase him but he walked down some stairs
SO SHE LITERALLY FALLS ON HER FACE
AND IS DESPERATELY TRYING TO CRAWL AFTER HIM
but he just walks away, crying on the inside
but alkdghad to her that was just
and now she's in prison, now knowing his ultimate plan
which is, of course, to die
die when he becomes this all powerful tyranical ruler
then she'll be enstated as empress and lead a peaceful world
because he trusts her with that
asdlkgh and then when he dies she just
that scene still kills me
as the crowd is like, cheering for his death she finally understands his plan
and tells her she loves him so much
but as he's gone she cries that she would have been happy just being with him
UUUUUGH KILL ME NOW, tehse two
and yeah that's Nunnally's big brother
and she loves him so much
and right now she's conflicted but months down the road I"ll canon bump her
and that'll be fun so look for that
alright, thanks everyone for listening to me ramble
I have so many feelings about this relationship
I both want to play with a lelouch more than anything, and never want to play with one
oh gosh and stick if you're still here
when zhas made the cookie and it reminded her of lelouch
I SWEAR TO GOD, IT'S THE HIGHEST COMPLIMENT SHE CAN GIVE SOMOENE
zhas would have Complex Feelings about her brother if he knew
no yeah, as everyone should
he's kind of a douch but he's her important person douch
no, I take that backmore than kind of a douche
like, getting millions killed and being cuthroat and brutal and ruining the lives of nearly everyone who is close to you
you made it work for the betterment of the world at the end but
made many bad life choices on the way
on the one hand, dying for someone you love....... kind of his jam
on the other hand, making Nunnally cry....... not his jam