It's frustrating, to see the possibilities hanging out in front of me.. and knowing that if I could just manage to wash my hands of everything for a few weeks, I could start getting to understand blender.

but meanwhile I've got mountains of things to do.. and I don't see any clear spots in my future where I can put the brakes on long enough to start running through tutorials and such.

Still.. the results are there, taunting me, saying "You could be doing so much better, you could break through these silly limitations.. if you'd just take the time.