reading these before dinner was so fun

but now I'm full of ramen and home and ready to type and babble

I've brushed on this before on memes, but I"ll go into specifics here

Nunnally: I LOVE NUNNALLY A LOT

and I was really drawn to her when I first watched Code Geass

and without meaing to just was constantly thinking of things from her point of view and feeling so sorry for her

she's so gentle, and outwardly fragile, and broken by many standards

but she's so strong and kind despite that?

she's a character that, in traditional senses, can be see as useless

she's smart but she's no genius, she hates fighting, she's physically imcompetent

but she has her strengths, knows them, uses them, and tries to help people where she can

I think that's so powerful and strong, and... you'll see this is a theme in the caracters I play

I seem to always play characters that I admire and want to like... live in their shoes and use them as an inspiration

and the message I get from Nunnally is be thoughtful and purposfully kind

Ringo

RINGO IS SO WEIRD, and she's so................... such a contradiction?

she's blunt but shy. rude but kind. daring but practicle.

but by the end of the series she's so honst, open, determined, and wears all of her emotions on her sleeve

I have such a hard time accepting, showing, and living with my negative emotions, but Ringo doesn't do tht

all her feelings swirl inside constantly, but she always tries to move forward, do what she can, and that's so... strong. IDK, she's so relatable

just this normal high school girl, and she's so aware of the contraints that come with that

but she just does everything within her power all the time, and works so hard

And it's fun for me to read the penguindrum novels, and like... there are such lovely quotes about her

they all mention her eyes at the end, and the determination that shines through

so yeah... her message is try with everything you have for the things that are most important

Colette

where do I even begin with Colette

I played ToS when I was like... what, eight grade?

so I was 13?

man

That game, and Colette was so impactful to me

she was my favorite character then, and now shes like...

idk, I feel like everyone has a singular fictional character that is the most important to them, and that's what Colette is to me

she's kind purely and simply.

She loves, she accepts, she believes in people, she always sees the best, she gives freely...

I want so much to live by her example, to be so... idk how to put it

I KEEP TYPING STARTS OF SENTENCES AND ERASING THEM!!!

I want to be a genuinely kind as her, and I relate with her struggles

That feeling like the world is on your shoulders, and it's a weakness to depend on others

when you see their own suffering and feel like you're just being a burden by talking about your own

that feeling like if you're not sacrificing your own happiness, you're not giving your all, and you're a bad friend

APOLOGIZING CONSTANTLY

(tbh, I always thought it was weird when I frist played the game.. how often people talk about how she apologizes)

(I was like, Iwould apologize in all of those situations..)

Just wishing so badly that you could carry the burdens of the people you love, and wanting nothing more than to see them happy

and to see all of that in her, and see people who care about her telling her that it's okay. You don't have to be perfect you just have to be you

you just being you makes the world a better place, thinking about how wonerful all the party members are to her in ToS makes me want to cry

I just love her, I love her story, and I think she's wonderful

so for Colette her message is love freely

and yeah

me being a sap, news at 11

I love my woobie girls

mimi this is lovely