I rushed home to try and get back when Rhiannon finished work

(she's working at the bar at the cliffs where I work)

so that my dad could walk both of us back

but he didn't tell me the correct time.......................

so I rushed back and didn't have time to get food..........

and then she wasn't even finishing until 12 /pulls hair out

I got there at 10.36 ................ because I thought she finished at 10.30

and I was really paranoid that if I didn't time it right I'd be forced to get a cab

in the end he walked us both back separately

but my mum was really angry I didn't get food

and said I should have demanded that my dad bring me some???????????????????????

like what.,,,

because that's what a parent would do

and I don't treat him like a parent because I didn't demand this of him

?!?!?!?!

I'm sorry I don't default to demanding people bring me food????

I wouldn't ask that of my mum??

sometimes I request things...very rarely.... or ask for something if she's offered

but I don't demand for that kind of thing??

I've had too many years worth of people making fun of me for how much I eat for that

and being accused of turning up to eat all of the food when I just wanted to see people

/issues

I'm still not over that horrible NYE

when have I ever turmed up just to eat all of the food

fucking never???

I hate bodies I hate food

and apparently I don't even treat my own dad correctly

I'm such a fucking failure

I don't know how I'm supposed to interact with anyone