this is a 2-fold rant. 1st part is about my mom in law & father in law & then the 2nd part is about doctor bullshit.. you been warned?

1. My MiL asked me before I laid down how to update to windows 10 - i forgot to look so when she asked tonight I started to look I had told her before hand she needed to update windows 7 as she had not gotten

the lovely windows 10 update / reserve app. So she was like how do I update - both me & my FiL tried to help her. Harrold being him has to be nosey/bossy/rude & asked how we updated. I told him idk cuz we have

our pc's automatically update due to well obvious reasons. So she rebooted her pc & I told here I'd go look more & try and find out how to do it for her. I come back in and sure enough Harrold has to be in

there telling her what to do blah blah blah. I'm like try this - which she is a person who doesn't know how to type she'll type 1 letter with her finger at a time.. I wanted to have her move so I could do it

but yah. So anyways she's just like don't worry bout it ya'll are aggrivating me. I come back in here - my dog is having an asthma attack I'm hurting Harrold is annoying - as the usual and it's just rawr. So

I was looking up more info & send it then she posts on facebook how she hates asking for help & the person gets pissy. It's like.. really I wasn't being pissy cuz of you whcih i told you but i can get pissy ...

2. So I called at 830 this morning to my new primary who I got a call back from at like 1130am. I got told both an appt for my pulmonary and my hypothyroidism.. Both appts are over a month away.. The Pulm. Doc

appt isn't til Sept 22nd ... that's basically 2mo away when I'm sitting here worrying and trying not to stress about shit with my health. So I called the office and asked if I could be put on a waiting list

ie in case people cancel since it's in orangeburg. I was told sure - did they inform you we don't take medicaid. I'm like I don't think so but since medicare is my primary that's fine. She's like ok well you

have to pay the co-pay I'm thinking 3-10 bucks specially first visit. To just see this doctor to get to find out more & have him/her order tests it's going to be 40 bucks to see them. That's like half of what

I have left after paying bills. I don't even know if I can save that to go cuz of food cost and stuff. So yah I'm just wanting to go let a semi run me over right now cuz I'm sitting here stressing about that &

then having to deal with my MiL & FiL both without their precious nicotine til we are paid in 3-5hrs and it's like... really you really knowing I'm hurting knowing I'm already frustrated want to start shit. Of

course Harrold does cuz very first thing I do when waking and going to get a drink and dinner is - ya'll sleep all day. I'm like yes cuz we didn't go to sleep til about 1130am. Well that wouldn't happen if you

slept at night. Does it FUCKING MATTER WHAT THE FUCK TIME I GO TO FUCKING SLEEP!?!?!?!? I'm in pain; I any time you or mom wake me get up to help if you want me to - ie cooking; doing dishes; etc & you want to

bitch/complain/be snarky cuz I choose to sleep when my body lets me. When josh was here I still wouldn't go to sleep til 3-4am and he'd wake me at 8-9am and once Sam was home I'd take a nap. I'm sorry that I'm

miserable & I can't sleep when I want to. Do you have to be an asshole about EVERY fucking thing... shit. June needs to hurry the fuck up. I'm going to I think call the doctor in the morning & see if I could

try & get an appt with a columbia doctor perhaps that takes both medicaid & medicare. I realize I still might be waiting a long time but damn.. I feel like crying.

I feel so... just overwhelmed for lack of a better word that I want to do stuff that I KNOW will just cause more trouble...Like taking a baseball bat to harrold's computer.. or head. OBVIOUSLY I'm not gonna