I shouldn't let things or people upset or hurt me. While I use plurk & facebook as a part of 'me' l shouldn't expect people to stop & say oh cute; or respond to my emo feeled plurks. One of the main reasons I

turned off karma a long time ago cuz either I get really emo about not seeing responses - specially on stuff I wish there was a response on... Or I forget like when I go to georgia fora weekend 1st time I did

karma dropped off like 3pts? So I smacked the freeze on karma. So instead of sitting here feelin emo & then dumb cuz my brain is telling me I should be asleep more I'm just gonna brush it off & look towards the

good shit going on in my life instead of little insecurities weigh me down so much. I'm an introvert; I have issues; I love hard; I get hurt to easy. I'm trying to find a balance of happy me despite or because

of things that may or may not happen on plurk, fb, or even on SL I think sometimes I let it control me emotionally it's like a little invisible cord I'm attached to. I think maybe this is due to the fact that

I am me no matter the avatar; meaning I don't have a different personality despite the avatar. I have really tried to find myself through Maddie the adult little me if that makes sense. I still struggle with

my BPD {borderline personality disorder} and I think sometimes it gets the best of me.. even when I don't want it to. Anyways.. Gotta go deal with bills, groceries, and wet weather on 3-4hrs of sleep...

squishs the Rou

Lillia: YAAAAAAY love all squishes

meh true