the longer and longer i go without a job

and the fact no one will even cal me is depressing

:|

what even is the point of it all lol

medical assistant

ive had 1 interview

ive applied to idk 20-30 jobs

i have a test waiting for a government job but i had to reschedule it bc i see the doctors that day :/a

theres always new med assistant jobs out there.

like i literally had an interview with one place a month ago.

although it was a group interview with various other hospital locations, they said no

they posted a new job a few days ago

and im like :|

I'm just deciding if i should say i have a disability since i do have major depression and anxiety and like super bad dominant hand.

its really stupid; with so many jobs opening for my field i should like

be able to walk into a hospital and be like yo im ready.

i always mess up on interviews too;

im like honest to a fault and when they ask those stupid

what didnt you like about this job

i'm like uh;;

see i do fine with practice

but when i get to actual interviews

99% i just wanna be like. look im hard worker. i know what im doing. im in all technicalities too smart for this job and should be on a higher tier but im at rock bottom bc life happens. i get along with -

everyone. i listen to criticism well. i get shit done.

im honest to a fault.

the only thing you may have an issue with me is pens may or may not go missing sometimes and then reappear

nahh it's cool

im mainly ranting;

<3

thanks for talking to me tho

ill keep applying

i just get super discouraged orz