At first it looked like a retina burn and now it's just weirdness around the corners of my vision

Now it's this weird flicker, like a ceiling fan movement kinda

And my eye feels slightly gummy

oh thank god it fixed itself

....fucking hell bitch can you not

now one of the lesser managers is all "WELL YOUR PALLET CAN'T BE THAT HUGE I DON'T KNOW WHY IT'S TAKING YOU SO LONG"

I'M ABOUT TO HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN OKAY IT'LL BE DONE WHEN IT'S DONE

yeah way to make it sound like I'm not even trying. Fuck you.

I want to go home.

I don't give a shit about the money. I don't give a shit about having a job.

I just want to get away from this stress.

like I am seriously in flight or fight mode right now.

I'm on the fucking edge and I don't know what to do

Help....I know I've managed to alienate like 95% of my plurklist but I need serious help right now

Please

....I'm about to run. I'm about to fucking run.

....hahaha good job society making me feel like I'm absolutely trapped with no way out because I can't leave work

WHAT DO I DO

.......fuck

fuck my life

fuck it all

shit. i'm not sure what to tell you. will they let you go to the bathroom. can you go there and take some deep breaths?

I'm at lunch. But I have to go back. I don't want to.

I want to run so bad

You may be able to take a medical half-day, that sounds like it could be serious /HUG

You should get it checked out, whatever you do.

....hahaha and then I broke down in the middle of the lunch room

D8 Please go to HR or the nurse or home, hon. This is obviously fucking with you really hard. At this point, I don't think it MATTERS how risky HR is, you don't want to be here unless things change drastically.

the eye thing sounds like it could be a migraine

There wasn't a by pain in my head tho

*Any

At any rate I can't afford to go home

They're severely cutting back my hours for the next three weeks

So I'm going to have to open commissions for art and ghostwriting

Possibly bite the bullet and ask my aunt if I can work as a temp at her fundie daycare

But....working here less?

So less stress that way I suppose

migraines also include visual symptoms and you can actually get those without the headache

either way you definitely need a better job

Jesus

I'd see a doctor right away if you can. Don't fuck with your eyes' health! What you describe is scary and makes me think of a retina getting loose and torn.