Sammie (one of our rats) has two black, sorta scabby moles on his head, has been really lethargic, and hasn't been eating that well. He won't really take his favorite treat, even.

I got him to eat two cheerios this morning, though.

That is an EXCELLENT sign.

The trade off is that I can't tell if his breathing is erratic or he's just startled when I'm too close to him right now??

I love him and his brothers so much and want them to be okay more than anything.

Having rats has been an emotional rollercoaster, because after losing the first (I'm really, really bad with death; like needles, which Auto has to hold me down for, it's one thing I just don't deal with) ..

I've been paranoid all the time.

What? He's sleeping?

HE MUST BE SICK.

What? He's breathing funy? YEAH he's sick.

And I feel so bad for Auto for constantly piling all these worries on her. I know she's got to be getting exhausted of it.

I'm really grateful for her being there to deal with my stupid sobbing behind, though.

So this is just me rambling.

Because I have to get it out before work.

Because I don't really want to cry at work. Or on the way to work.

But just -- if anyone reads this, keep him in your thoughts?

That's all I want for Christmas.

for my boys to be okay.

is there a vet open today?

but if he's eating its a good sign!!

Thoughts and prayers with you guys

And if you want to cry at someone, feel free to call or text me. I'm around