Today I had two huge mailers that took a lot longer than I thought to process. I had two assignments that were handed to me that I thought would be easy to do but were actually long and extensive to do.

I ended up asking my office manager and a coworker to help out. Funnily enough I needed just enough time to seal up the last mailer and I had nothing to do since I had delegated it outwards

My manager was pissed and I understood why but at the risk of sounding sexist most of the office are women. So the comptroller came down and I saw them talking and I had a weird feeling that it was about me

Though I mean it could be about someone else, two women are going to be on maternity leave soon. The lady behind me who might be soon was out today. She had a rough day yesterday so I suspected it was just

her having enough.

Everything was finished but I really felt like I had let everyone down.

And from these logs I've only been working there for two weeks. But it always feels like they expect me to know how to do everything right despite being trained a day

or for a few minutes

on important documents

The few victories today though were I did manage to finish at least five things right away. Being downstairs is much faster since I'm close to the scanner/copier and the postage machine

And I'm learning how to use MS word more efficiently

And the mistakes from today and all the other days are starting to form a pattern. I have a better idea of how long a task might take.

Things to be sure of on Monday: Everyone in the office will know about what happened to me today. I will look worse than I already do now. All the mail will most likely comeback.

So sorting

filing

and dodging stink eye will be athing

But my phone works now and I hung out with the bae and some people from school

it was ok in the end