and it's big because i've given regulus a very deliberate posh of memories

his starter memory was very energetic, full of emotion and really squishy love because. he's. absolutely in love with riley matthews. news at eleven.

It was a socialization memory which made it easier for him to approach his firstgames?? BUT IT'S GREAT BECAUSE I SPECIFICALYL CHOSE

a few hour study session with rory & smackle where the three of them tend to debate murder/break out plots. and they can get pretty detailed because genius nerd children

squints at the double negatives in that quote tho

then going on prefect rounds with irley

eviscerator sobs yeah i know. but that's how the line worked in disney so while the AU IS A LOT. i wanna at least correlate someway

but farkle has this weird squishy feeling then--> 7yrs old parents very obviously fight and are not around a lot

already a kind of fear in disappointing your dad--> remembering that people thought something was wrong with him and agreeing the

were right and he doesn't understand love> lifestyle debate with elle> silly thing with maya--> and then an actual child abuse thing

and it's interesting because he actually does believe and feel he doesn't understand love and

i knew it would be memory based/interaction based regarding how it worked and

Y. HE IS STILL VERY SLYTHERIN. because "what good do we do?" is memory based he's still very emotionally unattached

though barghest has made him a bit squishy he'll deny it >.>

and riley memories (whch is actually like 2 out of 7ish, and one shared) help like tryyyto break through the emotional part since they're usually very intense

so i'm just like hmmmmm because right now farkle is trying to be friendly!! he knows that's important but it's a v. us vs them mindset rn

and he's protective of barghest in the "these are mine don't eat them" sort of way

but he's really good at coming off polite and pretending. which is kinda cnanon because he switched his entire persona once

technically twice

idk rambling

I just Realized that's whar i gave him and why it reinforced somet things

the truth under the truth though is that farkle is a naturally mm he wants to lead people?

so there's still an inkling of 'if i'm going to do this i need to care' it's very low but it does peek out a bit

what if pavo just sits on you until you love him though????