I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but I cannot bring myself to actually do anything today

this happens sometimes and it's frustrating

like, it's one thing to choose to take a day off responsibilities? it's enjoyable then, it's a nice break

but I keep

starting things

or like more realistically staring at things I should be/have to be/said I would do

and not doing them

it's like there's an iffy connection between motivation and intention and on days like this it's been shaken entirely loose

ugh those days are the worst, I'm sorry

I can never find a way to get around it either

and then the guilt piles on that I'm not accomplishing the things I have to do today, and that makes everything harder to start. <___> I know it would go away if I just did one or two things, but

SHRUG

ughghghghghgg Kes

u feel me bro

I DO

also the frustration of being like "well that was a waste of a day" is horrible

I wish I could help

listening helps! There's not really much anyone can do to actually, tangibly help, and that's cool, this is just one of those things

man though I was staring at my tags and thinking that at least I was good for AC this month.... and then remembered that last log where I have all those threads started before October. T___T

I'm having trouble whipping myself into getting involved this month, because I'm hiatusing in November for NaNo

smack-dab in the middle of the mission, so anything I start had better wrap up by the end of October

but dang it I need AC

this octopus expresses how I feel on days like that

OH GOD it's spot on T________T

(I'm kind of having one of those days too - I made myself do a bit of sewing earlier but not enough to feel satisfied about it)

that's it, isn't it

teeny little bits of progress but a total lack of ability to commit to one thing

and then (I mean in my case) I start avoiding things that would actually be fun to do because I'm sure if I just hold out a little longer I'll get motivation to do the things I should be doing

it so rarely works

well you have the thread with Mel for AC? and so you'd only need one more?

ugh those days are the worst

!!! That was in october wasn't it!

Kes you hero ;u;

with any luck it'll pass soon :c

and hopefully you'll find something for ac!!

ahhh I will I will! I'm just rolling around and making frustrated noises right now, it'll pass

if I end up being a lazy lump for too much of this month I'll just grab one of you lovely people and boomerang something over a couple of days

but it won't come to that, I'll manage

Yep! I made sure to put it up in October for AC lmao

you

you clever bastard

lmao it's just a habit, I don't tend to do new posts end of month since then they're harder to use for AC

beginning of month they can be good for a "half AC is done!" reassurance

haha yeah this is my general strategy as well

all of these game tips and tricks that you clever veterans knowe

I'm'a have to keep this in mind

you get used to things like that tbh

like keeping track of AC and knowing when you've hit it

it can take a lot of weight off <3

ha ha keeping track of AC... I do that usually too late in the month to actually do anything about it

though to be fair in this game I've never had a worry about hitting AC!

everyone's so lovely and taggy

even in the early days when I was struggling to worm my way in

and now evan is everywhere and we all love him

=u= he knows how to warm hearts

literally, anyway

sdfljksdf

/snuggles