he's normally long asleep by now

did pop-pop die? did grandpa die? did my brother or sister fuck something up? does he just want to see me some point this week???

"try to call at 12:30 to 2pm" YOU MEAN DURING MY WORK HOURS........... PLEASE TELL ME SOMETHING

Progress towards Kippie's Explosion: 60%

okay fine thank god he actually told me

pop pop died. I knew this was coming. that's sad

but I am less freaked out than just not fucking knowing

he just didn't want to tell me over text which is fine but COME ON... PLEASE...

he could have like.... you know....

called you and left a voice mail.....

my dad is not good at handling grief (I am like twelve times worse)

but I'm in such a dense medicine fog that it hasn't hit me yet but my usual anxiety sure is

WHOO BOY

GOT DISMISSED AFTER 15 MINUTES OF WORK BC I WAS COUGHING TOO MUCH... bothered my friend to get a ride, feel super guilty about that.......

sitting in a coffee shop and coughing like I've got the plague, I hope I'm not too troublesome

all the while the news hasn't hit me yet

Hang in there and take it easy :c

I think I'll be fine...? hard to say, I handle each death completely differently and this one I've been ready for for about a year

I think if I get depressed it'll be from seeing my mom get depressed