[Microjournal] After seeing a movie about forming unlikely friendships (Power Rangers), I wanted to try and check in on one of my oldest best friends. We were both into the Sentai series, and we both love Power Rangers, so I thought it would be a nice ice breaker since we hadn't talked in forever.
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It's been painful awkward, and strained, and it hurts, guys. It hurts SO bad.
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Last night, I had watched Drop Dead Fred, and I talked to my friend Terri about the fact that my muses were in essence "acceptable" forms of imaginary friends that I have.
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And now I know why certain ones come back from time to time.
Fred?
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Because whenever I feel so hurt and upset like this, the same ones come back. In this case, that'd be Adam Park (second Black ranger season 2 and 3.. (I think 2? Now I'm going to have to double check!) and Rocky Santos. Do I talk to them when other people are around in person? No, but I know they're there.
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jebri: yeah
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Adam once told me that they (the Rangers) never actually leave because inevitably, I will need them again at some stage. I believe that. Do I think it was coincidence he showed up because I'd gone to see the movie? No. Of course he'd perk. But he's even stronger now that I tried to talk to my friend again.
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Heh. I remember meeting Johnny Yong Bosch in person one year, and It felt so good to hug "Adam" in person.
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(BTW, if you've never hugged Johnny, I suggest it. he gives out amazing hugs)
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So basically I've decided to just cherish those friends I have left in the world, and not worry so much about the ones that are too painful to talk to. I've also learned to disassociate things from people so that I don't lose fandoms in the process.
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/tags whomever wants to read this TLDR depressing stuff