only always

it just hit me how fucked up it was that there were days when i worked at target and was assigned to work grocery, esp the produce/dairy/baking aisles

on days where itd been a day or two or more since id eaten something more substantial than like

stale break room bread

and maybe rice

...ouch

yeah, that's fucked up

last night i got hungry and then suddenly remembered how hungry id get looking at all the yogurt and produce and baked goods when i hadnt eaten anything good in ages

i ate so little during that period of time

i mostly dealt with hunger by sleeping

if i wasnt at work and if no one specifically wanted me for rp or something, i slept, so i wouldnt need food

and for some reason its taken this long for me to really get hit with hpw fucked up that was

christ. i'm sorry, byrd. i know it was the past but i'm still sorry it happened at all

yeah... one good thing abt being technically homeless right now is robb and steve house me and also feed me

havent eaten this well in years

also i didnt lose ANY weight during that time >

no kidding. i get jealous listening to you talk about their cooking, ngl!! but hey. think you deserve it after that

also hhh that sucks but it does make sense. it's kinda what's happening with me. given that i forget to eat for long stretches of time you'd think i'd lose weight but no, my metabolism just shut off instead

wehhh

thanks tho