I recently got bumped up to a much higher dosage of one of my meds, one that I thought would only have benign side effects

I was wrong apparently?????????

I guess I should know by now that messing with hormones can really fuck with you but man I just... Really underestimated what my side effects would be

So step 1 was losing sleep/rest to anxious and stressful dreams so I'd wake up exhausted from being in a stage of panic during all my rem cycles

2 was increased bouts of depression mixed with intermediary bouts of anxious energy and panic attacks

3 was my internal clock fucking up so bad it wakes me up every night at 4 am starting 4 days ago

And aaaall this finally came to a head the night before last when, while waking up at 4, I had a vivid hallucination of a figure saying my name and turning into my room, only to disappear after walking past my bedpost

Oh geez. Can you talk to your doc about that?

I curled the FUCK UP into my blanket and talked to the dark for about 5 minutes to make sure it want real, fell back asleep and then woke up already having a panic attack

Brush I am doing just. Not. Well. So basically sorry that I've been gone so much. I'm kinda way head fucked up on top of the fact that I'm packing to go back to school

Yeah, I called her today but she was out so I'm hopefully getting a call back tomorrow......

Like, I'm used to dealing with dumb brain shenanigans but this is getting mildly frightening

Oh my god /HUGS

I'm terrified for you! I hope you get a call back ASAP.

Oh holy fuck. Hope you get a call back because this is not normal or good D:

Please don't be too scared..! I mean... yes clearly I know this is not good, but I'm okay for the most part..!