im in the midst of a horrendous depressive spiral please don't mind the "stop seeking contact with people and spurn all my hobbies completely out of nowhere for days on end" thing

i think my doctor Saw An Omen in me or something because on my little New Meds Checkup thing they ramped the dosage up before this new medication has even left its "takes maybe like 2-3 weeks to show results" period

me: walks in
doctor: The Black Wind Howls.............

(mostly it's just making me queasy and sluggish so far)

the funeral date is set and thaaaats about all the talking about it i wanna do

feel free to bother me if you need to, dear, but I hope you feel stable again soon

I lombve you, Snap. Take care of yourself ok?

Sorry about The Brain Stuff.

Brain Stuff is pretty awful.

Hang in there, Snap

honestly accurate

that good old classic mood, Overwhelming Desire to sit Alone in a Dennys in an effort to simulate an entirely transient world where I am attached to nothing because Actually Running From Everything for Several Days would be prohibitively maladaptive and dumb

why are my spirals Like This

i could be doing shit like dramatically buying a one way ticket to Paris but instead I reach for like. Tear Up in a Shitty Diner over a plate of mediocre hash browns

I can't even be the exciting fun kind of Awful lmao

Look, the Denny's probably appreciates your business, regardless. You're stimulating the local economy.

the pancake industry needs me

depressed people looking for The Void at odd hours is like 90% of their client base lbr