I need to let this out somewhere. I know I’ve been gone for like ever, but this is bothering me and I don’t even want to talk to my therapist about it

Basically, I’ve become VERY active in a FB group. We do daily shitposting and it’s mostly Waifu related. It’s mostly a really welcoming community and it’s been a very great experience for me.

This group of wonderful people have really opened my eyes to showing me how friends and people should treat me and I’m trying to do the same in kind for some of them. We are kind of becoming pretty close in a relatively short time

I say relatively short because the group started in July due to some drama from another group, but I only became active on August 31st. That was the day I started my first daily posting. I remember this because I started on Miku Hatsune’s birthday.

A few of the members have stood out more than others on my dailies because they interacted with my post. One of these people is the person in question. I have really enjoyed interacting with this person.

In fact, when I was going to get Christmas gifts, they were the first person I got a gift for. I got them a commission. I even ended up getting them a poster, but that was because the con had a BOGO

Anyway, this person has an SO and this SO treats my friend HORRIBLY from what my friend has described. Of course, I know I only hear the bad.

I have NEVER said for them to leave their SO, but there is a part of me that would want them to and return that to me. I know I don’t need that right now. They wouldn’t need that if they ended their relationship with their SO. They have been together for 6 years.

This person is also 9 years younger than me and lives in Chicago. I would never want them to leave that city to come to this shithole

I wouldn’t want anyone to destroy their lives like that for me, ever.

I’m scared that they return feelings

I’m also scared they don’t

I feel like I have to keep all of this a secret

But all I really want more than anything is for my friend to be rid of the toxic people in their life and have some self love

If they can have that and their SO can provide that, then I won’t have any complaints.

I guess I just care

Deeply

I just want them to be okay