it's very frustrating

like, i feel very permanently like /drags down eyelid to reveal veins in eye and i . . . there's no obvious reason for it

i have a grant that's due soon but that's . . . well handled, really

in lieu of a better explanation i blame anxiety brain

anxiety brain is godawful /: i hope you feel better soon

thank. lies down

(if anyone wants to boomerang a thing i think that might help distract me from the impending heat death of the universe)

we're winners who have control of our feelings

aghastly estrapade walpurgisnacht you have things in your inbox!

also TOTALLY RELATEDLY mobiusloops i can't believe dirk is getting jay to do his social calls for him

how does it feel to join the alpha kids breakfast club jay

does this mean he has to develop a crush on jake english

yes! alternatively he could go the roxy route and just crush on everybody

inbox things o_o goes to look

holy shit jay

don't BREAK something

mobiusloops: dirk.

why are you afraid to talk to the dragon dirk

jay, asking a question for dirk because dirk is so nervous: "those of us who are actively trying to get you out aren't nervous of course"
geir: "oh good, i was about to call dirk because i was worried he was nervous"

SCREECHES

he might still call him but he's going to be shocked when he finds out dirk's upset

if dirk says he was worried that'll prove jay lied anyway i guess

but maybe he just didn't know!!

if geir ever does get an opportunity to call jay out on lying all the time it'll be so funny

because he'll be super shocked

and then like "oh i guess in retrospect that makes sense"

but he'll have to be super shocked first to get there

how could it be, that jay,,,,